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Do you know what it is to lose to burn inside your mortal soul? I do know what it is to burn deep within yourself in your heart. It never stops hurting and the scars they rarely heal. For you blessed me and the same time cursed me with this desire these feelings of Love and loss hate and misery. With this ability to regret my choices when it was you who made me choose. I want to forget to dream again to Love and not to Hate to miss and not to Regret those choices you made me do.

I did what I had forbidden myself said goodbye to an angel I loved So Close my eyes as they stayed open and gently carry my body battered and bruised lifeless bloodless cold And embrace it for your warmth I always asked and turn this white skin of mine to color of life Open my eyes and gaze to the maelstrom whirlpool of my soul dying thoughts soon departed And just softly whisper to me 'I loved you' For soon I am not of this world but I don't want to go alone unloved.

The ashes fall and I step down on this broken concrete again I shriek in pain my back is on fire feathers falling down on this broken concrete You burned my wings No longer can I dream No longer I can fly But in time I will regrow them again Just to burn them again But not for you.

.:: wicked Dreams ::. In my wicked dreams I saw you walk away and I couldn't hear myself scream there's nothing to ease my pain You left it all behind love, life and happiness my feelings you've denied My heart can't bear it anymore this empty loneliness coldness of our home just eating my soul away You let it all go to waste love, life and happiness just leaving behind this bad taste And in my wicked dreams I still see you walk away yet I don't hear myself scream only one thing to ease my pain You left me here without love, life or happiness walking on the razor's edge And so I push myself back into that madness into

.:: Moment nr. 5 ::. I sit silently besides you enjoying my morning coffee yet in this silence your smile is what I truly enjoy We are but humans passing by in the day sailing this ocean of Life alone As for me this ocean is empty and this ship of mine it has always sailed empty So many times I've looked in your eyes and so many times you've looked away Was there a longing you saw in my soul or was it a reflection of my past Yet here I still sit besides you enjoying your smile and wondering what you saw that made you turn your eyes away

:: The Human Touch :: Just a gentle touch your hand laying on my scarred heart I feel your breathing lazily in your dreams My eyes gaze the starry night as we lay together finally Don't wake me up to a day without your touch

:: When Dreams Die :: The Dreamer dies and the sandcastles collapse The Night darkens and is filled with dying stars The Dreamer dies The World he once helped to build crumbles to dust Monuments of what he was blown away in the Wind of the brewing storm Lightnings break the clouds apart When Dreams die only the speck of light Of what once was and what once will be takes the Darkness away When the Dreamer dies the dreams he dreamed on the moonless night Will once again be reborn from the ashes and dust And Dreamer awakens To another dream And once again the sandcastles build themselves

When the Heart wants and the mind wanders When the desires collide with unwanted consequences I stop to breath for a moment I stop to dream for a day For this unreal truth finally comes to me Decision to make I do not wish To stay or to leave just for a day The answer I seek I do not find inside my heart or inside my mind For to leave means to leave you Dreams and desires I cannot have both But to stay and to listen to my hearth means staying without a reason So between these lines between the dreams and desires I shall keep on looking for my heart for my mind for my desires and dreams just for another day

I watch you sleep breathing so peacefully when I feel my need to gaze at the nightsky Quietly stepping outside raising my eyes to see the Moon something stirs inside lyrics of a song long forgotten Stormcandle waves in the wind hairs brushing my forehead cigaret butts rolling on the pavement dust dancing to form your smile I heard you turning in the bed you always were a restless dreamer I stopped sleeping a long time ago on that faithful moonless night My hands brush away the clouds springling fairydust in the air Moon glows softly with the stars It's a Poet's Moon tonight As I step inside I see tears on your eyes never

:: Moment: Dream in a Dream :: Glass of wine on the nightstand white as the desert's sand next to the book I read when I should've been sleeping instead I read about Midgard way past midnight To me, time was digital when I was interested in the mystical Stories came and they went to me, reality came bent I closed my eyes, saw your face you were sitting by the fireplace dressed as a princess thru your hair, I ran my fingers Before a kiss, I heard a beeping morning came, waking me from my dream no wine on the nightstand, had I been dreaming? So real my dream of you